A light festival and the inner spark. (When to whirl your diverish)

Last night I was in a glorious little haven called Govinda's, it had a coi pond and was a krishna temple and they celebrated and danced and had marvelous food, some of which was totally not good for me and I was reminded why I am here to begin with. My journey in life has been to find the balance of extremes and I struggle regularly from having a very indulgent and wacky childhood, and yet it being very spiritual and now I find myself in a spiritual situations and feeling like I have come to a place of peace in my self but does that mean that I belong in community or that I am more comfortable as a beacon? I have lived as a monk for over 4 months now, and I find that as I am motivated to continue with my healing of all my wounds and share in the process with those of a similar path I am also amazed at how lack of consideration for the ordinary becomes so blaring in my ear. Today was another day after the Festival of light. The candles are blown out and the floor is swept and all things return but there was a moment where there was the blessing and we all held space for grace. And the divine maybe reaches out and touches you. Beyond your own frustrations and your falls there is just you and your daily practice...... do you eat well, do you take your body on a strea

ch, do you whistle while you work, do you smile like you mean it? Sure I sparkled at the festival of lights but I think that was the spark from with in and that is the eternal flame.

Ahoy Hoy where does the time go in a tiny town with nothing to do?

Seriously is it the end of October? Well I have celebrated my 4th month at the Tree here in Patagonia and it comes with more questions and even deeper resolutions. The power of companionship has been a big theme in my second round here, not only have I switched room but I have made a quality friend that is beyond my usual range and we are roomie and it is great to have some confidant and a golden girl that shares a similar view, about taking things in the more 80/20 direction, it make me nervous to accept something completely and not see it's faults and all. And I am starting to get more entwinded with what I want to do here and also I am feeling freerer to go and do what I am meant to. Of course the question is since I am getting better, and well there is a station here well then why do I want to leave. Companionship the same thing that links us all back to life ever unfolding is not what we would fight for but what we would live for which is love. I find that my creative expression gets focused on the wooing and my powers of making stuff go into making woo scenarios rather than developing battle anthems, it has never been truer than to simply say are you a lover or a fighter? Can you be both? I am finally going to make it on KPUP radio which is all I ever wanted to do since I first laid eyes on this little southern exposure town. I will post it as soon as I get my hot little hands on it. What else I love a great despacho ceremony and i finally did an enipi- native american sweat lodge. I've been feelin my roots more and not freaking out by the nature that I am a part of not inspite of. Can you Imagine.... Me? Well anyway I'm making progress on my health and every day I look for more challenge. Today I took the Mesa Trail. Next week who knows but I just keep at it and need to remember that even when I think that there is no more that there is something beyond, and that is the fabric of truth and worthiness when you are ready you do what is needed to be done and then you have what you need for the task at hand. Miracles are all around us as we are more and more open to the portal of Universal Expansion. So dream, dream big and be really honest doing it. You haven't the time to waste and why would you. you are your own obligations and rules and experiences. Whether you create conflict or have to much on your plate in order to feel more important you create the life you lead and I hope for everyone that they stop living out of their head and start living in their heart. I mean me of course but this seems to be a big "overcome" So here I go letting go again. deep breathe inhale exhale repeat.

Remembering - what is what 9/11/11

As this weekend Laboured on with a reflection on the wound of our collective conscious that was 9/11 - how it has changed the very nature of our interactions and global community and my own personal journey to and away from my place in New York, It was also Grandparents Day! And it was then that I reflected on the importance of our ancestral and our family experience rather than the lies and the haves and have nots. This weekend I was taking a drive through the country and surrounded by some lovely people all trying to heal and to activated to a higher level of living in a dessert oasis that has some extrasensory en-lightning. I have been working on heavy dream work and meditation and as I was bouncing into town I took notice of my trip to Wall mart and how this is the norm as opposed to the small independent organic grocer of Red Mountain, I ponder what kinds of jobs and lives do we as a civilization are creating for the "Wall Mart Crowd" Ten years ago I was just starting to get my sea legs back from my 1st Burningman, I was 21 and I wanted to be a voice for my generation, but in the activation of a hate cycle I could not bear to speak with the poison that drowning my country - all that could have been must now released and forgiven it is time to let the poison go. And just be with joy with laughter and with the freedom to not be miserable in the choices you and I have all made to negotiate a stranger and smoky time. Find your fire within.

Sunday Night Check in- It's good to be back.

Wowsa ok, well I have missed the reflection and coming back to sharing and feeling my sense of purpose. As promised with a raw diet and exercising, I have lost over 30lbs in the almost 3 months that I have been here. I am in a seva or service position and have nuzzled my way into finding a balance with yoga zumba, qi gong, and my duties in the normal 9-5 where I have a cubicle and office mates. I live in a dorm and have had a merry- go round of roommates that are here from all over for various reasons most of them health related it seems, that they too got sick of it all and needed a break, I'm not so much seeking spiritual counselling or just plain old fashioned physical healing but there are definitely links that are sneaking into my psyche as I am building reserves and mantras to get out of bed and "just get to yoga" my tried and true are It takes courage to come to the mat every day, honor the teacher in you, I won't remeber the class but my ass will. and so on. I am not surprised that there is always drama in a small commnity but really it is where ever you go, but everyone here is punching thru and finding their way, the guests are fasting and finding themselves and I feel like I'm on a cruise ship where I get to see behind the scenes, does this make me more cynical that everyone is human and working it out... even when you eat nothing but orgainc and phase 1 and practice intention. But I do love the walk, the quiet, and though I can not make it to everything I am liking that I am just here on a road that will lead me to where I want to go because every day I am sculpting my life

Greetings from the Desert!

Wowsa what a month, a move, TEDxSF, couch surfing, and now finding some recharge in the AZ desert. So in letting go and embracing that my health needed imediate attention I packed up and found my way down here. I think that I'm looking for the badge of courage patch tattoo to earn while down here. The experience of silence is profound and sunset and sunrise meditation is amazing and the raw food. I'm enjoying wearing white, I do loathe this awkward sense of pudgy tourist at a raw spa, but I'm making it work. The big lesson here is that I have to just be myself and werk it out whereever I am because that's the only place to be. Day 3 I could stand a piece of bread and some lentill soup. But overall I'm not missing the usual. And what of my media, mogul intentions with the radio, well they are on hold for the minute I will get all my old show archived in the next couple of days and see what is a good fit for me in the meantime I'm taking a holiday but I will still come here to share my thoughts and process, I guess because some one might need to know how to cross the bridge of insanity to vitality? Sure.

The week that was - bowing out and other inspires for Community

So I had a missed connections with the sustainable road show, I guess they where pre-occupied with Lightning in a bottle? eh..... This week I announced that I aM TAKING A SABATACIAL to Tree if life and so the closing time of SF as being strange someone, I feel like cities and people can sense my release of netwerking here but my heart is very excited to be open to a feeling of caring for my self before I can step up and do all the things I really want and need to do. I had a closing circle with WAM last night and was reminded of how nice it was to create a collective of my own and how important it is to intentionalize your community. So as I prepare for the road myself I honor all the wonderous moments of sharing creative space and time and how much richer that has made me in heart and life and product. I also found that one of my friends from Denver is working on a SF collective and here is an interview with him. Check it out on being a magical faggot.

Sustainable Roadshow is making a stop at Cultural Rehab today at 4!

Today on the Show we will have Jonathon from The Sustainable Road show talking about being a social movement on the move and building a homebase in Oaktown.
Plus a little May Outro Soundtrack for all the loving MAy and the Crazy that is so catching........

The Calming buzz of eventual always - rapture HAHAHAHAHAHA?

Among my intense dreams of the last year that has been very communicative with galacticness and aligniment stuff and dealing with my hometown hero complex and my course changing decision to head to the dessert to once and for all get out the nasty old habits and find some space and time to heal the wounds of my body mind spirit, I am taking things so perfectly slowly and even among the tragedy of epic storm stomping through our bible belt.... and the utter chaos of this GOP making the last desperate grabs at power money something it is clear that there is the new skin underneath and so as we say good bye to the comfort of Oprah's guidance, the message is clear that we have our own heart to shine the light of right and wrong for ourselves and to let the expectations of intended future worry us into frozen. It just is not so anymore. I have been taking the time to read about the 5 languages of Love and catching up on Ally Mcbeal which is a late 90s legal show that embraced it's quirck and I have to say I feel like I am finally taking the time to understand what is love and relationships, apparantly in my 20s I thought I knew eveything I needed to know and on some levels I did for me but with out any regard for what that meant for understanding what that meant for anyone that wanted to be in my life. So my point of this week, and with the whole rapture pressure off and that this is the end of one world to the next one, I have to respect the process and not make the assumptions but be present for what I can and be even more honest about what I can't do. But leave some room to dream because that is the map.

Egyptian Pyramids Found By Infrared Satellite Images

Egyptian Pyramids Found By Infrared Satellite Images

2020 vision: Eat a printed dinner in your printed home - tech - 19 May 2011 - New Scientist

2020 vision: Eat a printed dinner in your printed home - tech - 19 May 2011 - New ScientistJust sayin this looks to be pretty fun and exciting.....