Monday, March 26, 2012

Time keeps on tickin tickin into the Future

Spring! new ideas, new horizons, new hopes and dreams. In 2012 there is a light and a sense of time as in NOW NOW NOW let's get r done.

SO yes can we start to make the changes in our own lives to be more activated in our own content. I wrote down things that make me happy, things that I want to happen and how to pray or ask for these things how to be grateful and in control of my attitude to not feel anxious and overwhelmed by all the many short comings of my self and the culture that is disappointing me. I wonder about why The Huger Games has such sway or john carter but ultimately it serves as a warning to not be passive in your life but to be activated and involved in your own outcome. I keep searching for my honesty to be fair but opportunist in saying I want something and really opening my mind to making it happen. Today I was shown 2 options with getting a car and in my assumption, I did not follow through with the kind of magnanimous demand of ownership that allowed me to get the thing I was surprised by as a real solution to my problem. The reality now is that I have what was an obvious band aid- but not a silver bullet. My point dear friends: grab it. I hear people talking of how everything is going to get fixed and wrongs will be righted all I know is that everyday is the chance to untangle this web of crap that has been spun by you and the powers that be it has been a tango of foilospohy. I'm over it. And so I return to the things I love. and the life I lead to care for the things I love to do and person I want to be. Getting older I guess.
New to read on my library list

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Fallout for International Womens Day- Peace be with you Bitch. l


So as I ramp up out of the fogg of pain bruise and blow of ego.... and wildly face my birthday and question my desires needs accomplishments and as a women in her early 30s single smart and without any ties, in the midst of the tornado of womens rights being microscopted and kicked like a hacky sac on a college campus in the ring of politco. I wonder what culture should I look to for inspiration for a Independent women with a healthy role in sweetly spicy sexual equality. I was inflamed over the panel for contraception being all men, it seems that only religious men have a useful opinion on womens reproduction, or designing a ultra sound wand..... and Rush that glob of foolery, those were expectaed and obvious but, it was Daniel Pinchbeck that posted on his FB how he thought that women had become well here is the post "I find women entirely complicit in the corruption and degradation of our contemporary civilization. If they were to stop sharing their bodies and giving their energy to men who do nothing to uplift humanity or sustain the biosphere - or men who betray their word and commitments - the system would collapse in on itself in a heartbeat. I believe women have no moral high ground generally, though of course some individuals do. I would love to see a female uprising as in that Ancient Greek comedy where no favors would be distributed until men came to their senses, ended ways and behaved according to an ethical framework that would support the preservation of the earth and the elevation of humanity as a whole. Of course I won't hold my breath for this, but there you have it." I flew into a rage, wondering why this man would somehow feel that women using pussy power would be an answer to men being corrupted as if that was not the reason perhaps for the problem, like women don't get enough abuse in relationships with bad men, all these years and so many women have been silenced with rape and beaten and burnt and bleed, in western world how long has it been that women could wear pants, own land, vote, divorce for mistreatment, earn an equal wage, or be given a fair price, or treated respectfully in negotioations. And here was another "feminist guy" still pointing at greece and saying ladies you should be more responsible for the problems that men cause by just even standing next to them.

Is it not enough that a women does not get the luxury of love for the price of nmotherhood, that she is expected to do the job of five and never say " Eff you, I want more! or Bitch Please.... make your own dinner, buy your own detergent. Fill out your own paperwork. I have never heard of a women spending 10 hrs playing video games while unemployed. "if not a guy was involved". I see the mothers on the bus with the strollers, the girls strutting down the streets in gaggles in shorts to short or skirts to

tight or heels to high, I see the women in suits to square. And I feel like an orange..... zesty and bright and juicy but this is an apple world.... What is the American women doing? What is the celebration of women in all the other cultures? I want to take the guilt out of the equation. I want to own my joy and not have to apologize for my ambitions, and maybe instead of men being intimaded by a women that can be independent men can be impassioned by her. And as for the using pussy power to make a man play nice I think we should send him to burning man or a big cuddle fest because that is probablly what he was missing in his childhood that made him so mean and silly anyway. This summer at the tree I read this

and it was great.... a testimony to how many smart powerful ladies have spent most of their lives being passed over and hung out to dry....

So why does Daniel and really everyone go Greek when looking for a simpler better time.... women didn't have any power then - and today I watched a thing on Petra hosted by Spock. Women could own land in this once thriving city...

notice the flower of life symbol everywhere..... anyway I'm intrigued by this desert city that feels like it has a deeper story to tell..... I think that we should get better at being loving with eachother more so when we get off the path.